Holy cow, people! I just realized I haven't written anything in almost three months!
bad Camila. [reference to "The Emperor's New Groove"]
So....to make up for all of my neglect, I will write at LEAST every month, especially during my DTS. That's a promise.
So to start my December post, I want to say that I am feeling a lot of mixed emotions about this month. I always love seeing my family, but because two of my sisters are married, it's inevitable that I won't see them and their husbands every time. I am grateful that I am so close with my family, and that I do miss them, but it still is hard not to see them as much. Also, God has been doing big stuff with me, but unfortunately sometimes I put up such tough defenses and He can't get through to me as easily. I need to keep being not only teachable but trusting. Trust has been a big theme in my life recently, as much with people as with God. I'm working on it, but it's a painful process sometimes.
For all of you that are putting your hearts back together , I am right there with you. Let's stay in community and love and be loved. I'm a perpetual runaway, but since someone prayed that I would feel this cord holding me to God when I try to turn away, it's better. I am staying even as it feels impossible to, as God gives me the grace.
I don't understand much of anything, and the more I think I do, the more I get confused. So I have decided to go back to the beginning.

Never Forget (Him),
the Skywriter

My First Long Short Story

Hey Everyone,
so I'm in this amazing Creative Writing class at MCC, and my 8-15 page short story was due this week. Well...it's the first long short story I've ever written, and I've been fussy and jittery over it all week. I finally finished it yesterday for me class last night, and I am really happy with it. :)
It's 12 pages double-spaced, and much more serious and intense than any of my other stuff :)
Writing is so fun.
Apart from that, I am just continuing to learn and work, on school and on singing and on relationships. There's always more to learn about the people around you :)
For anyone who's sad, remember that there's Someone who always cares and will always listen. :)


Never Forget (Him),
Camila

Yesterday's attack

Hey everyone,
before you get too freaked out, I am talking about a spiritual attack. It's still serious, but it's not like a guy came and mauled me or something. Just so you know...
So yesterday, I was pretty happy and content, and then suddenly I felt overwhelmed by this WAVE of depression. I've struggled with depression before, but this was something a lot bigger than just me. I was discouraged and stressed out and consumed with self-hatred, and it took a few people with truth to help dig me out of my despair, but praise the Lord.
I will ask all of you praying folk to intercede for me, because I am still struggling with insecurity and doubt, but I am doing much better than yesterday. As one of my songs says, "I'm breathing the air of another day, choosing to go another way. And as for the options I am to explore, there's so many more. I'm never going to stop, as long as I'm alive."

So...what else is going on? Well, I am going to have my first official recital in November, for singing of course. I'm excited and nervous at the same time, but mostly excited!
I am in an amazing Creative Writing class, which is helping me grow and even letting me help others grow. I have an 8-15 page story that's due this Thursday, so needless to say I am working my tail off to get that done, and hopefully still pretty good quality in spite of being short term. :)
hmmm...I don't know if I have a ton more to say, but I'll keep you posted. Get it? Posted?
Never mind.

Never Forget (Him),
Camila Joy

Life in the crazy lane

Hey everyone,
it's me again. I had an amazing day, but it was also tiring as well. I am feeling more comfortable and also less comfortable with college, in that I like it but it is also more challenging. Which is good. I think I confuse myself sometimes ;)
Anyway, for anyone who was hoping for some details of my trip to New Haven, I am writing a little bit here. I was going mostly to visit my boyfriend James and his family, and that was a wonderful time. But some memories are cheapened when spread over a page, so I won't say too much about it.
College is crazy, and challenging, and good for me. I am learning to work hard at things I may or may not like to do. It's an important skill. And when I want to slack off, I have the incentive of getting online to blog, or e-mail, or facebook, or talk to James. It keeps me on track.
So I'm taking Spanish, Drawing I, Math, and Introduction to Fiction Writing. They keep me busy, but I have good teachers, and I am confident that I can do well. I'll just do my best.
I suppose I don't have a lot more to write about, so tata for now.

Never forget Him,
moi

College!

hey everyone,
I started community college yesterday, with my Spanish 102 class. I really like the teacher, and there are some cool people in there as well, including my "compadres a la mesa" (gr check?) and some writers in the group. Can't wait to talk to them and find out what they write! :D
College agrees with me, but i am soooo tired. I woke up at 4:15 this morning for no apparent reason, and I didn't go back to sleep. All I have to say is that I AM taking a nap today, even if it's just a short one.
I leave to visit New Haven tomorrow! Time flew.

Never Forget (Him),
moi

My New Job....and other random details

Okay, there's so much to say about today!
I woke up at 6:30 sort of groggy, because I went to California this weekend and
am still rather sleep deprived. I went to work (Wendy's) at 8:OO and found yet another manager (on loan for two weeks apparently). I shadowed people at the register, did a lot of running for fries and frosties during the lunch rush, and generally just stayed on my feet. Some funny happenings:
It got so hot behind the counter that I actually liked wiping down the tables and chairs just to be able to be in a cooler place...so at one point, I asked if I should go do that, and got an affirmative, and sort-of-subconsciously grinned and did a mini victory dance. EVERYONE laughed at that, because apparently people really hate that job. I don't, so it makes them happy. "She's really easy to please," they were saying, and I felt silly, but oh well...it works for me.
Oh my word, and there was this adorable little boy playing on the rail in the line, and I walked by and he grinned at me and said "Hi!" so I said hi back and his mom told him to get off the rail. Such a cute Hispanic kid, with big brown eyes and black hair :)
And now for a few embarrassing moments-I know you were waiting for those :P
So there was an order up with a small frosty on the tray, and I was hurrying fries to the next tray over, and I dropped a fry in the frosty, and I didn't know what to do, but I couldn't just LEAVE it there....so I grabbed it with my fingers, avoided the amused faces of the woman and her daughter, and went to wash my hands in the sink of humiliation :P
So it was a cool day...feel free to leave comments, eh? :)

Never Forget Him,
moi

Finally...I have a job!

Hello everyone~
I went in for my orientation at Wendy's today! So I am starting my actual job on Tuesday. I'm pretty excited. I feel like I don't have much news....
I am going to California this weekend, and I am going to see some of my best friends in the whole world!! Okay, too many exclamation points. Whew. I love my life. I really do.
I have been reading, writing songs, working on a new story, and daydreaming....the best pastimes ever.

Never Forget Him,
moi

why?

Hello all,
I called this post "why?" because I think that is the question that is asked most often by children and least often by adults. I think that we miss something important when we don't ask it.
As is probably apparent, I am in a pensive mood about various things. This is the best time to write. :)
My summer is not terribly eventful right now, but it is peaceful. I am getting a lot of swimming and free-reading time in these days. And blogging time ;)

Adieu for now,
moi

summertime

Hey there everyone,
so it's really summer. It's finally sinking in. I suggest all of you go and listen to "Summertime" by Kenny Chesney, for your supreme enjoyment. :)
Anyways, I went to a job interview for In 'N' Out this morning, and I think it went fantastically. We'll see what they thought of me. I am ashamed to say that I've mostly been a lazy bum, and haven't done a lot of productive or constructive things thus far. I am determined to do several things this summer including:
~get a real tan (mostly for the poor people I blind every time they see my white legs :P)
~learn how to cook
~finish writing my novel
~work on my guitar-playing skills
etc. :)

Love you peoples,
Moi

more about arts camp!

Hey y'all,
you can tell that I was in Texas this past week ;) So, I want to tell everyone about arts camp.
As I said before, it was mainly and intensely a dance camp, which I didn't know before I arrived.
Altogether, each group learned the same three dances in a week, and then we performed them for ministry that weekend. On Friday, we went to Dallas. There were two places my group went that evening, to a neighborhood with a lot of Hispanic immigrants. It was fun to dance for the kids there, but more than anything I loved playing with them. I got to hold little girls that hadn't gotten a lot of love assuming from how much they soaked it up, and hold the rope for them to jump. I felt like God was really reaching people through us. The next place we went was more inside of the city, called "West End", and there was such a feeling of darkness and oppression over that place. My group and I danced on the street corner, and then prayed with some people afterwards, but there didn't seem to be that much response. I went back on the bus feeling kind of depressed, but that emotion melted like ice cream once all the groups were back together and we started worshipping. It was a really good time. That was the overnight trip on Friday.
Then, on Saturday, we went to a WATERPARK for ministry. It was a lot of work to dance in black shirts and jeans in the hot sun, but we got to swim afterwards so it was totally worth it. I got totally sunburned on my face and neck. And I totally sound like a valley girl :P
On Sunday we performed at a mall, and that was really fun. Then it was suddenly Sunday night and everyone was saying goodbye. It's an amazing group of people, and it was a little sad to leave, but I was glad that I was going back home.

Blessings,
Me

Camp in Texas: Insane but Exhilarating :)

Hey y'all, :)
I am in Texas for a week of arts camp, and it is basically incredibly tiring but amazing as well.
Dancing every day, hardcore. :)

more later,
me

wow it's been forever. :)

okay so...I can't believe it's been this long since I posted about my life!
so much has happened.
let me see if I can catch you guys up. ;)
since August 2007, I have done a lot more than sit on my hands.
In August 2007, I started my first and last year of public high school. It was a lot of transition, but definitely a good challenge and helped me grow in my faith. In the first two months of hip hop, I had two pairs of shoes stolen because I didn't put a lock on my locker. That was a major reality check, and it also made me pretty upset. I put a lock on it. :)
I turned seventeen on October 22nd, at which time I made some solid resolutions, which crumbled by Thanksgiving.
In December 2007, the entire Hervey clan was present for Christmas in California, including my two big brothers (in-law, but we're close). That was amazing.
In January 2008, nothing really amazing happened.
In February 2008, I got back in touch with James, a good friend and someone I'd had a huge crush on for a while. I hadn't talked to him in three years.
In March 2008, I was struggling with Math a lot, and worrying if I was going to pass that stupid (sorry, math lovers) Algebra II.
In April 2008, on the twelfth, James asked me to be his girlfriend. This was interesting and amazing both, considering that it was over skype (IM) and that he lives in Connecticut. However, it's been the greatest adventure for me. I miss him and am planning to visit him this September.
In May 2008, I went to my senior Prom, and it was great, but I was wishing I could dance with James. Then on the 22nd of May, I graduated from high school! :) THAT was an awesome day.
And now it's June. I am off to a week of arts camp with Arts With a Misson, full of amazing times. I'm so excited. I'll write about it when I come back, or I might possibly have computer access this week :)

Love from Arizona,
Me