Holy cow, people! I just realized I haven't written anything in almost three months!
bad Camila. [reference to "The Emperor's New Groove"]
So....to make up for all of my neglect, I will write at LEAST every month, especially during my DTS. That's a promise.
So to start my December post, I want to say that I am feeling a lot of mixed emotions about this month. I always love seeing my family, but because two of my sisters are married, it's inevitable that I won't see them and their husbands every time. I am grateful that I am so close with my family, and that I do miss them, but it still is hard not to see them as much. Also, God has been doing big stuff with me, but unfortunately sometimes I put up such tough defenses and He can't get through to me as easily. I need to keep being not only teachable but trusting. Trust has been a big theme in my life recently, as much with people as with God. I'm working on it, but it's a painful process sometimes.
For all of you that are putting your hearts back together , I am right there with you. Let's stay in community and love and be loved. I'm a perpetual runaway, but since someone prayed that I would feel this cord holding me to God when I try to turn away, it's better. I am staying even as it feels impossible to, as God gives me the grace.
I don't understand much of anything, and the more I think I do, the more I get confused. So I have decided to go back to the beginning.

Never Forget (Him),
the Skywriter

My First Long Short Story

Hey Everyone,
so I'm in this amazing Creative Writing class at MCC, and my 8-15 page short story was due this week. Well...it's the first long short story I've ever written, and I've been fussy and jittery over it all week. I finally finished it yesterday for me class last night, and I am really happy with it. :)
It's 12 pages double-spaced, and much more serious and intense than any of my other stuff :)
Writing is so fun.
Apart from that, I am just continuing to learn and work, on school and on singing and on relationships. There's always more to learn about the people around you :)
For anyone who's sad, remember that there's Someone who always cares and will always listen. :)


Never Forget (Him),
Camila

Yesterday's attack

Hey everyone,
before you get too freaked out, I am talking about a spiritual attack. It's still serious, but it's not like a guy came and mauled me or something. Just so you know...
So yesterday, I was pretty happy and content, and then suddenly I felt overwhelmed by this WAVE of depression. I've struggled with depression before, but this was something a lot bigger than just me. I was discouraged and stressed out and consumed with self-hatred, and it took a few people with truth to help dig me out of my despair, but praise the Lord.
I will ask all of you praying folk to intercede for me, because I am still struggling with insecurity and doubt, but I am doing much better than yesterday. As one of my songs says, "I'm breathing the air of another day, choosing to go another way. And as for the options I am to explore, there's so many more. I'm never going to stop, as long as I'm alive."

So...what else is going on? Well, I am going to have my first official recital in November, for singing of course. I'm excited and nervous at the same time, but mostly excited!
I am in an amazing Creative Writing class, which is helping me grow and even letting me help others grow. I have an 8-15 page story that's due this Thursday, so needless to say I am working my tail off to get that done, and hopefully still pretty good quality in spite of being short term. :)
hmmm...I don't know if I have a ton more to say, but I'll keep you posted. Get it? Posted?
Never mind.

Never Forget (Him),
Camila Joy

Life in the crazy lane

Hey everyone,
it's me again. I had an amazing day, but it was also tiring as well. I am feeling more comfortable and also less comfortable with college, in that I like it but it is also more challenging. Which is good. I think I confuse myself sometimes ;)
Anyway, for anyone who was hoping for some details of my trip to New Haven, I am writing a little bit here. I was going mostly to visit my boyfriend James and his family, and that was a wonderful time. But some memories are cheapened when spread over a page, so I won't say too much about it.
College is crazy, and challenging, and good for me. I am learning to work hard at things I may or may not like to do. It's an important skill. And when I want to slack off, I have the incentive of getting online to blog, or e-mail, or facebook, or talk to James. It keeps me on track.
So I'm taking Spanish, Drawing I, Math, and Introduction to Fiction Writing. They keep me busy, but I have good teachers, and I am confident that I can do well. I'll just do my best.
I suppose I don't have a lot more to write about, so tata for now.

Never forget Him,
moi