Much in my heart; hard to express

I know that's kind of a mouthful for a blogpost title, but that's really why I haven't written in a while. My School of Evangelism has been challenging and changing me--well, God has been, ultimately. But there are teachers and teachings that definitely make me think and reason through things I might never think about. The other thing that's blowing my mind is how God will start talking to me about something and then it shows up in class the next day, and that's not uncommon. I love how God keeps connecting concepts to real life, because I don't really know something until He shows he how to apply it. :)

For example, I am learning that when I do the "silly little things" God asks me to do, it builds our relationship so much more than when I do the things I know I'm supposed to do. In other words, when he says "Go this way instead of that way" or "eat green peppers and tomatoes and cucumbers with Italian dressing", I do it because it blesses him that I care what he thinks, even if it seems silly. And then, it turns out not to be silly at all, because all of those steps lead me to deep relationship and intimacy and that brings out the best in me and then helps bring out the best in others around me as I live the way God intended...

Wow. It just awes me how God works!

That's all for now. More soon :)

Incomprehensible Changes

there's a part from "The Host" that perfectly describes how I'm feeling.(slightly changed to fit my life with God.

“But when He touched me, it was deeper and slower than the wildfire, like the flow of molten rock far beneath the surface of the earth. Too deep to feel the heat of it, but it moved inexorably.” ~The Host by Stephanie Meyer~

It seems like that's what's going on with me. I don't always feel things happen so well, but there's something deep God's doing in me. And no matter how loud everything else gets, I know He's there and I know He's changing things.

That describes my week, and it was intense.

Wasting Time

I have been wanting to write a post of processing, not only the things that I have been learning in my School of Evangelism, but about a book I just finished reading. It's called "The Rest of God: Restoring Your Soul by Restoring Sabbath" and it's by Mark Buchanan. There were a lot of good thoughts in it and one of the things that impacted me most was the difference between "chronos" and "kairos", basically the time as a slaver and a taskmaster and the kind of time you actually notice and enjoy and experience life.

On the other side of that, God has been convicting me about wasting time. There's a lot of difference between savoring time and squandering it. And along with receiving time as a gift, there are always certain ways to use it BEST. He showed me the other day something that I found really interesting. He told me that if I do things on time or even ahead of time, it opens up the way and opportunity for Him to use me in other's lives in ways that I don't expect. I'll write more on this when I've processed it more.

As for prayer requests, I would love to have some extra energy and inspiration for writing.

It would also be great if I could stop drinking coffee because I think it is weakening my immune system immensely. So pray that process would go smoothly. Thanks! God Bless!

God is Faithful

Psalm 20. Go read it; it's amazing. :)

my version (to make it relevant to me as a woman)

May the Lord answer you when you are in distress; may the name of the God of Jacob protect you. May he send you help from the sanctuary and grant you support from Zion.

May he remember all your all your sacrifices and accept your burnt offerings.

May he give you the desire of your heart and make all your plans succeed.

We will shout for joy when you are victorious and will lift up our banners in the name of our God. May the Lord grant all your requests.

Now I know that the Lord saves his anointed; he answers her from his holy heaven with the saving power of his right hand. Some trust in chariots and some in horses, but we trust in the name of the Lord our God. They are brought to their knees and fall, but we rise up and stand firm.

O Lord, save your princess! Answer us when we call!

I would love it if you guys would pray this over me. :)

Have a lovely Wednesday night.